“Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and cometh down from the Father of lights, in whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning.” James 1:17
My first post on this blog, “All is Grace,” was written while I was sitting in the cafeteria at LeBonheur hospital. David had been taken for a biopsy to test for Hirspreung’s Disease. He was only 5 days old, and I was a mess. A crying, fatigued, emotional mess. In that post I wrote about a book I had read and re-read shortly before David was born (and have read again since his birth). In One Thousand Gifts the author Ann Voskamp challenges her readers to count the gifts God gives us – count them one by one all the way to one thousand. This time last year I began the challenge. I started listing God’s gifts. I started this challenge for several reasons, but honestly I started this challenge because the author of this book struggles with worry and anxiety, and so do I. It’s a sin I fight every day. Somewhere in the book she says something like – you can’t be thankful and worry at the same. She’s right. This is a practical way I battle my worry. I count. I count His gifts and they are many. When I began counting I thought it would be easy to reach one thousand, but once you get past your usual surface thankfuls it becomes more difficult. You have to look closer, but when you do, you get a glimpse of God’s love towards us in all His gifts.
While we were in LeBonheur I kept counting. I would write His gifts on napkins, receipts, scraps of paper and then stuff them in a book. I recently took the time to sit down and add them to my list. I want to say, “THAT GOD IS GOOD! ALL THE TIME!” David’s birth, through our time in the hospital, through 2 major surgeries, through trials I never thought I would be able to face, through the last seven months, and YES, through a Down syndrome diagnosis – GOD IS GOOD! ALL THE TIME! I recently had a conversation with a friend, and I was able to tell her in all honesty that David is perfect for me. I’m easily discouraged, overwhelmed easily, battle anxiety, worry, and a melancholy spirit, and this little boy with Down syndrome is a gift I never expected to add to my list, but he’s there. He’s an unexpected gift I didn’t know I needed. “Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above…”
I recently reached #500. I’m half way, and I’m still counting. It’s a great challenge.
Happy Thanksgiving! I’m especially thankful that GOD IS GOOD! ALL THE TIME!